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Adaptation: Gail de Courcy-Ireland

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To all those whose brains will
decompose before their hearts

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Everything's ready.

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Ok.

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Some wine?

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Yes.

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Stop!

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Thanks.

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Cheers.

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Life's a dream, isn't it?

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Yes.

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A dream within a dream.

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To us.

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To us.

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We are so little.

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My friend the rose

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told me so this morning.

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I was born at dawn

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baptised with dew.

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I bloomed

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happy and in love,

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in the sun's rays.

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I closed myself at night

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and woke up old.

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Yet I was so beautiful,

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the most beautiful

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flower in your garden.

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We are so little.

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My friend the rose

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told me so this morning.

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The God who made me

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bows my head

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and I feel I am falling,

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falling

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My heart is almost bare.

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I've one foot in the grave.

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I'm already gone.

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You admired me yesterday

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and I will be dust

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tomorrow for good.

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We are so little.

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My friend the rose

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died this morning.

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The moon tonight

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watched over my friend.

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In my dreams I saw,

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dazzling and bare,

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her soul dancing

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beyond the clouds

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and smiling down on me.

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Believe he who can believe,

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I need to hope

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or I am nothing.

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Or else I am so little,

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as my friend the rose

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told me yesterday.

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… we will discuss the grieving process,

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the importance of rituals,

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the notion of resilience,

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post-mourning awareness

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and subjective experiences
of contact with the deceased.

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Our guests are joined by

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Dr Boris Cyrulnik, neuropsychiatrist,

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essayist and ethologist.

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Dr Christophe Fauré,

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psychiatrist and psychotherapist,

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and journalist Stéphane Allix,

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author, founder of the Institute
on Extraordinary Experiences.

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Christophe Fauré discusses
the grieving process.

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The grieving process
is the natural, intelligent process

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intrinsic to our being,

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that accompanies the healing
of the violent, brutal wound

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caused by death.

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It will

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heal the wound

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and let us go from
an external, objective bond

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with the person we could hear,

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see, talk to and hug,

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to a subjective internal bond,

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where we never lose them.

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… the opposite of oblivion.

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On the contrary,
it's called introjection.

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Internalisation of the
loved one's presence, forever.

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If you are close to someone
who has lost a loved one.

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and you feel helpless or awkward,

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Dr Fauré stresses the importance

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of opening up a dialogue with them.

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Not to leave things unspoken.

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Ask about their
bonds with the deceased,

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how they died:

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evoking memories

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or saying their name
helps the griever maintain interaction,

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favouring the integration process.

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The grieving process is
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Boris Cyrulnik:

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we cannot leave to rot on the ground

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the body of someone we still love,

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who lives on in our heart, our mind.

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We love someone who has gone.

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We need to invent a grave.

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We've done it since Neanderthal times:

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the body is laid in a meaningful position,

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flower petals are thrown,

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food is deposited
for the journey to the afterlife.

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Tears are shed.

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Mr and Mrs Neanderthal

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knew how to speak,

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I imagine they must have

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spoken like today,

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when we lose someone, a loved one,

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we carve their name in stone.

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Carving the name

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keeps them alive.

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We put their photo on a tombstone,

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lay flowers around it,

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keeping them alive in our memory,

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when we know
they are really dead.

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So, performing the grieving ritual…

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every culture
has a grieving ritual.

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It gives the deceased dignity,

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and us too,

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for if we left the loved one's body
to rot on the ground

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we would be ashamed.

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We have to make a tomb

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and perform a social ritual.

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We cry, but we are together,

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it gives the death meaning.

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Our first response was

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the tomb as an artwork.

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Egyptians made artworks,

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we are still unearthing them.

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It's interesting for
the universal human condition:

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the representation of death.

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It differs from the perception
of a dead person.

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A dead body is a corpse,
death is a spirituality.

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In Western society,

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it has been kept at a distance,

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as have the rituals,
traditions and social codes.

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that go with the loss of a loved one.

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To what end?

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It's linked to technological progress,

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which has been beneficial.

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But in the 50 s and 60 s,

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accompanying death…

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moved away from the home,

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the ancestral practices

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… but which put death at a distance

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from society.

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It's become medical,

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care lies with technicians, experts,

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and we have removed it from society,

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it's hidden in hospitals

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Don't.

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Thanks.

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Can I help you?

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Toys…?

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Down on the right.

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If they are not reassured
the brain is siderated,

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the brain scan shows
it no longer works.

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So, they need to be reassured

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and that done,
they need to be encouraged

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to make sense of
what has happened.

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They need to talk,

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speech becomes affective:

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emotions are triggered by speaking.

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It makes sense:

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why has this happened?

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How to move forward?

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It's biological and psychological.

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You differentiate traumatic memory

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and healthy memory.

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How does that work?

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Healthy memory is progressive.

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We keep reorganising

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the memory of what happened.

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It's not the past returning,

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it's the representation of the past,

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our notion of what happened.

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It shifts with time and people.

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We don't see things

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as we did before.

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Inevitably, as we age,

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our childhood memories

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are not as vivid
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The representation of our past shifts.

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Did you find it?

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Memory of past events change.

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So that is healthy memory,

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it evolves.

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Traumatic memory is trapped,
it stops moving.

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Vuk?

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Coming!

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You there?

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There you are.

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Have you seen my wife?

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Not at all.

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Was she here?

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Was she here?

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Not today.

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If you see her

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tell her I'm looking for her.

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Ok.

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It's good you came, I found you a book or two

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… for your work.

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Wait

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What is it?

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They're on symbolism and dreams.

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It all ties in

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with your work.

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Yeah, my book.

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It's going well?

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Yes, but… I have to find my wife.

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Shall I keep them?

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Yes.

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I won't be at the meeting…

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too much work,

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but I'll call you.

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If I see her, I'll say you're looking for her.

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Thank you.

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Take care!

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Thanks.

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Have you seen my wife?

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Down the back.

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Sir? She's here.

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Where were you?

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I looked everywhere.

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All over.

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Why?

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Let's go home.

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You like it?

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How much?

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5 euros.

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Here, for you.

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Thanks.

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Come home.

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Bye.

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Be careful.

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Come.

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Careful.

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Yes.

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What did you do?

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Nothing!

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You went out,

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left the door open

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and no-one knew where you went.

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Where have you been?

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I was at the chemist's.

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No.

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That's a lie.

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Impossible, I went there,

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talked to them all,

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who work there,

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they all know you,

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no-one saw you.

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You didn't go there!

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Stop scaring me.

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You're scaring me!

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How?

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That you'll get lost,

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in the city…

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attacked by a thug,

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a dealer,

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it's a dangerous city.

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No.

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Yes, it is…

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And you swan around it.

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People are kind!

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People are kind!

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No!

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You think so

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but they're not.

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They're horrible!

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The world is full of madmen

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and horrible people.

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Full of them!

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Understand?

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I don't believe it.

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It's the truth.

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No, it's not.

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I've said my piece.

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You'll stop?

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You'll kill me.

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I don't want to hurt you.

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I'll be ok.

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I have to work,

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write my book

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it's important.

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Very.

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It's about films

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and dreams.

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It's an important book.

292
00:28:18,321 --> 00:28:20,001
Please, really.

293
00:28:20,121 --> 00:28:21,161
Please…

294
00:28:22,281 --> 00:28:24,081
Really… ok?

295
00:28:24,201 --> 00:28:25,201
Thank you.

296
00:29:59,201 --> 00:30:02,481
Please call me back.

297
00:30:04,001 --> 00:30:05,481
Really.

298
00:30:06,721 --> 00:30:07,601
Thanks.

299
00:32:07,561 --> 00:32:08,801
Claire, answer…

300
00:32:09,281 --> 00:32:10,281
answer me…

301
00:32:10,801 --> 00:32:12,001
Please.

302
00:32:12,441 --> 00:32:14,001
I need to talk to you.

303
00:32:15,441 --> 00:32:16,521
I need…

304
00:32:17,321 --> 00:32:19,001
to hear your voice.

305
00:32:20,161 --> 00:32:21,161
Please.

306
00:32:21,681 --> 00:32:22,601
Claire.

307
00:38:06,001 --> 00:38:07,361
Hi, Jean-Baptiste?

308
00:38:08,121 --> 00:38:09,441
It's me, yes.

309
00:38:10,761 --> 00:38:11,641
You ok?

310
00:38:13,441 --> 00:38:15,201
I need you.

311
00:38:16,801 --> 00:38:20,441
You know, I'm writing a book

312
00:38:20,881 --> 00:38:23,441
on film

313
00:38:23,921 --> 00:38:24,961
and dreams.

314
00:38:26,521 --> 00:38:31,481
I've already come up with a title:

315
00:38:32,801 --> 00:38:33,681
"Psyche"

316
00:38:36,161 --> 00:38:37,241
You like it.

317
00:38:38,521 --> 00:38:39,521
I'm glad.

318
00:38:41,041 --> 00:38:42,041
And also I…

319
00:38:42,241 --> 00:38:43,921
found a line

320
00:38:44,081 --> 00:38:46,961
a great line by Edgar Allan Poe:

321
00:38:47,201 --> 00:38:52,361
"Is all that we see or seem…

322
00:38:52,481 --> 00:38:56,761
Is all that we see but a dream within a dream?"

323
00:38:57,401 --> 00:38:59,521
It's grandiose.

324
00:39:02,281 --> 00:39:04,161
I wanted to put that line

325
00:39:06,921 --> 00:39:08,201
at the start.

326
00:39:08,401 --> 00:39:09,801
Yes, true.

327
00:39:21,161 --> 00:39:22,521
No doubt.

328
00:39:22,921 --> 00:39:25,081
I also think that

329
00:39:26,121 --> 00:39:27,281
cinema

330
00:39:28,881 --> 00:39:32,841
I mean a movie theatre,

331
00:39:33,041 --> 00:39:38,041
is the greatest most appropriate atmosphere,

332
00:39:38,441 --> 00:39:39,921
to…

333
00:39:40,521 --> 00:39:42,841
to expose our dreams,

334
00:39:43,201 --> 00:39:45,481
to tell them,

335
00:39:45,601 --> 00:39:47,281
because it's

336
00:39:47,801 --> 00:39:48,921
it's dark,

337
00:39:49,321 --> 00:39:52,201
you have no contact with anyone.

338
00:39:52,441 --> 00:39:54,921
It's like being in bed,

339
00:39:55,161 --> 00:39:56,081
sleeping,

340
00:39:56,401 --> 00:39:57,281
dreaming.

341
00:39:57,481 --> 00:40:00,321
Cinema is that

342
00:40:00,721 --> 00:40:03,201
a big dream.

343
00:40:03,921 --> 00:40:05,401
All cinema.

344
00:40:05,561 --> 00:40:09,481
Not just films about dreams.

345
00:40:11,521 --> 00:40:15,721
All films are dreams.

346
00:40:17,521 --> 00:40:18,361
Yes.

347
00:40:21,561 --> 00:40:24,521
Yes, the line I wrote

348
00:40:27,801 --> 00:40:29,801
"The dreamer is awake", yes.

349
00:40:31,401 --> 00:40:34,721
Sure, I'll ask my publisher

350
00:40:34,841 --> 00:40:36,121
if he likes it.

351
00:41:07,281 --> 00:41:10,641
I think in a movie theatre,
when the spectators dream,

352
00:41:11,041 --> 00:41:13,001
they don't see the dream,

353
00:41:13,481 --> 00:41:15,561
they see some symbols.

354
00:41:15,681 --> 00:41:16,721
Sometimes.

355
00:41:17,081 --> 00:41:22,121
But most are in a state of

356
00:41:22,481 --> 00:41:25,921
continual relaxation

357
00:41:27,041 --> 00:41:31,081
like they were

358
00:41:32,361 --> 00:41:33,321
in a dream.

359
00:41:33,801 --> 00:41:36,641
Caught in a situation,

360
00:41:38,161 --> 00:41:39,841
wonderful situation,

361
00:41:41,601 --> 00:41:42,561
with things

362
00:41:43,841 --> 00:41:45,761
that are in the sky.

363
00:41:47,721 --> 00:41:51,081
Symbols, as Freud said.

364
00:41:54,041 --> 00:41:55,001
Like the sea…

365
00:41:55,841 --> 00:41:57,121
it's your mother,

366
00:41:57,361 --> 00:42:00,681
but also means

367
00:42:02,161 --> 00:42:03,081
sex.

368
00:42:03,441 --> 00:42:04,921
Big sex…

369
00:42:05,761 --> 00:42:08,521
when you dream of the ocean!

370
00:42:09,201 --> 00:42:12,001
Huge sex!

371
00:42:13,001 --> 00:42:14,521
Huge sensuality.

372
00:42:16,681 --> 00:42:17,961
That's true.

373
00:42:18,601 --> 00:42:20,041
Sometimes…

374
00:42:21,121 --> 00:42:24,681
I can't say I've never dreamed

375
00:42:24,801 --> 00:42:25,721
I dream!

376
00:42:26,001 --> 00:42:31,761
But not always the way Fellini did,
or Mizoguchi…

377
00:42:52,441 --> 00:42:54,721
That's true, very true.

378
00:42:55,361 --> 00:42:57,561
It's really…

379
00:42:58,001 --> 00:43:00,081
the core issue.

380
00:43:00,361 --> 00:43:01,201
Bravo.

381
00:43:02,561 --> 00:43:03,441
Ok.

382
00:43:04,721 --> 00:43:06,041
Talk soon.

383
00:43:29,001 --> 00:43:30,281
Stéphane, can you come?

384
00:43:32,241 --> 00:43:33,081
Stéphane?

385
00:43:35,201 --> 00:43:37,201
Mum, have you called Nathalie?

386
00:43:39,041 --> 00:43:40,001
Nathalie?

387
00:43:41,321 --> 00:43:42,441
Yes, Nathalie.

388
00:43:43,561 --> 00:43:45,601
Your assistant, your former assistant.

389
00:43:47,521 --> 00:43:48,601
You didn't call?

390
00:43:49,521 --> 00:43:50,561
No, she didn't.

391
00:43:50,641 --> 00:43:51,561
Did you?

392
00:43:51,641 --> 00:43:53,241
No, I didn't because…

393
00:43:53,361 --> 00:43:55,921
she has to do that.

394
00:43:57,081 --> 00:43:58,761
She left me two messages.

395
00:44:00,161 --> 00:44:02,881
For the brain scan.

396
00:44:03,041 --> 00:44:04,761
Another one.

397
00:44:05,601 --> 00:44:06,441
No.

398
00:44:06,521 --> 00:44:07,361
Yes.

399
00:44:08,081 --> 00:44:09,721
It's important.

400
00:44:09,841 --> 00:44:11,681
Dad's worried and me too.

401
00:44:12,001 --> 00:44:13,321
You're a psychiatrist,

402
00:44:13,441 --> 00:44:15,161
you should be reasonable.

403
00:44:16,321 --> 00:44:18,361
We'll call her later.

404
00:44:19,721 --> 00:44:20,721
Just one appointment,

405
00:44:20,841 --> 00:44:22,641
I'll come with you.

406
00:44:22,761 --> 00:44:23,641
Ok?

407
00:44:24,641 --> 00:44:25,481
Ok?

408
00:44:25,561 --> 00:44:26,401
Ok.

409
00:44:29,041 --> 00:44:30,281
Go see Kiki.

410
00:44:34,521 --> 00:44:36,921
These are her pills

411
00:44:37,241 --> 00:44:39,521
like a cocktail mix.

412
00:44:40,161 --> 00:44:41,761
Your pills and Mum's?

413
00:44:41,921 --> 00:44:43,881
Yes. My pills are

414
00:44:44,001 --> 00:44:45,241
not many.

415
00:44:46,401 --> 00:44:48,241
Most are hers.

416
00:44:48,761 --> 00:44:51,201
Kiki was playing with them,

417
00:44:51,361 --> 00:44:52,241
put them away.

418
00:44:52,321 --> 00:44:53,161
Look at this,

419
00:44:53,721 --> 00:44:54,721
That's really strong.

420
00:44:54,801 --> 00:44:56,321
Did Mum write the prescription?

421
00:44:56,441 --> 00:44:59,041
No, the psychiatrist did.

422
00:44:59,881 --> 00:45:00,961
She saw one?

423
00:45:01,081 --> 00:45:02,281
Really?

424
00:45:04,801 --> 00:45:06,641
He gave her this?

425
00:45:08,721 --> 00:45:09,561
Wait…

426
00:45:09,721 --> 00:45:10,641
What?

427
00:45:11,001 --> 00:45:12,081
What is it?

428
00:45:14,641 --> 00:45:15,721
What is it, Mum?

429
00:45:18,321 --> 00:45:19,241
What's up?

430
00:45:21,881 --> 00:45:22,721
What?

431
00:45:23,401 --> 00:45:24,761
Take me home…

432
00:45:25,441 --> 00:45:26,281
Take me home…

433
00:45:26,401 --> 00:45:27,241
You are home.

434
00:45:27,361 --> 00:45:28,361
No,

435
00:45:28,481 --> 00:45:29,801
I want to go home.

436
00:45:31,121 --> 00:45:31,961
What?

437
00:45:40,681 --> 00:45:42,001
Look at me, what's wrong?

438
00:45:49,641 --> 00:45:50,481
I…

439
00:45:51,521 --> 00:45:53,841
I want to go home.

440
00:45:58,681 --> 00:46:01,041
We are home.

441
00:46:01,841 --> 00:46:02,681
Yes.

442
00:46:02,761 --> 00:46:04,481
No.

443
00:46:06,481 --> 00:46:07,361
Look at me.

444
00:46:28,841 --> 00:46:30,241
There's that man

445
00:46:32,241 --> 00:46:34,161
following me everywhere.

446
00:46:35,721 --> 00:46:38,161
Why is he here?

447
00:46:39,721 --> 00:46:41,281
Who… Dad?

448
00:46:43,281 --> 00:46:45,081
That's Dad.

449
00:46:55,481 --> 00:46:57,721
Dad… go see Kiki.

450
00:47:04,801 --> 00:47:05,721
Come with me?

451
00:47:06,481 --> 00:47:07,681
Will you?

452
00:47:12,001 --> 00:47:13,201
Give me your hand.

453
00:47:13,521 --> 00:47:14,561
Don't let go.

454
00:47:16,121 --> 00:47:17,361
Come, don't let go.

455
00:47:28,001 --> 00:47:29,001
What's that?

456
00:47:31,921 --> 00:47:32,841
Ok?

457
00:47:37,561 --> 00:47:38,641
What are you looking at?

458
00:47:51,361 --> 00:47:52,241
What?

459
00:47:57,121 --> 00:47:58,321
I'm scared.

460
00:47:58,801 --> 00:47:59,681
Scared?

461
00:48:00,801 --> 00:48:01,761
Yes?

462
00:48:03,361 --> 00:48:04,401
I don't know.

463
00:48:07,881 --> 00:48:08,761
We're…

464
00:48:09,521 --> 00:48:10,841
We're here.

465
00:48:11,641 --> 00:48:12,481
We're here.

466
00:48:17,041 --> 00:48:18,481
This is the living room.

467
00:48:23,281 --> 00:48:24,881
I don't…

468
00:48:27,161 --> 00:48:28,081
Look at me.

469
00:48:32,681 --> 00:48:34,041
Who am I?

470
00:48:35,641 --> 00:48:37,441
I don't know.

471
00:48:38,481 --> 00:48:39,641
I don't know.

472
00:48:46,081 --> 00:48:47,081
I'm Stéphane.

473
00:48:51,681 --> 00:48:52,641
Who am I?

474
00:48:54,001 --> 00:48:54,921
Stéphane.

475
00:49:27,121 --> 00:49:28,601
Mum!

476
00:49:36,961 --> 00:49:37,801
It's me.

477
00:49:37,881 --> 00:49:39,601
You can't kiss my mouth!

478
00:49:47,241 --> 00:49:48,121
Ok, Dad?

479
00:49:51,321 --> 00:49:52,841
I've got the DVD you wanted.

480
00:49:54,121 --> 00:49:55,081
Shall we watch?

481
00:49:56,161 --> 00:49:57,041
Mum?

482
00:50:09,201 --> 00:50:10,481
Sit here.

483
00:51:09,361 --> 00:51:10,841
We observe the world

484
00:51:13,001 --> 00:51:14,161
to understand it

485
00:51:16,041 --> 00:51:18,401
and evolve in it.

486
00:51:20,841 --> 00:51:23,721
Intelligence helped us make tools

487
00:51:24,481 --> 00:51:26,601
to understand the infinitely small

488
00:51:28,121 --> 00:51:29,321
and the infinitely large.

489
00:51:30,041 --> 00:51:30,961
Coming, Kiki.

490
00:51:31,161 --> 00:51:32,401
For over a century,

491
00:51:32,721 --> 00:51:34,321
Psychologists, biologists,

492
00:51:34,641 --> 00:51:36,761
geneticists and neuroscientists

493
00:51:37,001 --> 00:51:39,401
have dissected, analysed

494
00:51:39,841 --> 00:51:41,041
and measured our world.

495
00:51:42,361 --> 00:51:44,361
We have invented computers

496
00:51:44,761 --> 00:51:46,361
and walked on the moon

497
00:51:47,201 --> 00:51:49,281
but contrary to what we think,

498
00:51:50,001 --> 00:51:52,521
our intelligence is not growing.

499
00:51:53,961 --> 00:51:55,921
Today science explores

500
00:51:56,041 --> 00:51:58,321
the many facets of our intelligence

501
00:51:59,161 --> 00:52:01,441
but do scientists really know…

502
00:52:01,561 --> 00:52:03,921
Adding a problem on top of a problem.

503
00:52:04,441 --> 00:52:09,281
You know, there's a big word in life:

504
00:52:09,681 --> 00:52:10,841
"love"

505
00:52:14,321 --> 00:52:15,641
I loved you.

506
00:52:17,561 --> 00:52:20,041
I left you four messages,

507
00:52:20,161 --> 00:52:21,121
with no answer.

508
00:52:28,081 --> 00:52:29,281
You stay here?

509
00:52:29,401 --> 00:52:30,241
I'll go see Dad.

510
00:52:30,321 --> 00:52:31,281
Be right back.

511
00:52:32,401 --> 00:52:33,761
True.

512
00:52:39,601 --> 00:52:41,401
True.

513
00:52:58,121 --> 00:53:00,561
Yes, there was…

514
00:53:01,281 --> 00:53:02,481
someone.

515
00:53:04,481 --> 00:53:07,801
My wife is in bed, asleep.

516
00:53:10,201 --> 00:53:11,241
My son.

517
00:53:13,041 --> 00:53:14,481
He's here.

518
00:53:19,681 --> 00:53:21,121
Ok, I hope so.

519
00:53:21,521 --> 00:53:24,321
Thank you, my love.

520
00:53:25,281 --> 00:53:27,161
Yes, right, I…

521
00:53:28,481 --> 00:53:29,961
I'll be strong.

522
00:53:33,601 --> 00:53:34,761
Remember this?

523
00:53:40,681 --> 00:53:42,241
Who's that?

524
00:53:47,201 --> 00:53:48,161
Paulette?

525
00:53:48,481 --> 00:53:49,361
Nearly.

526
00:53:50,041 --> 00:53:50,921
Pauline.

527
00:53:54,401 --> 00:53:55,321
Whose mum is she?

528
00:53:58,321 --> 00:53:59,321
I don't know.

529
00:54:02,001 --> 00:54:03,121
Who's Pauline?

530
00:54:04,521 --> 00:54:05,441
Whose mum is she?

531
00:54:06,681 --> 00:54:07,521
She's…

532
00:54:07,601 --> 00:54:08,521
What's your name?

533
00:54:08,641 --> 00:54:09,481
Kiki.

534
00:54:10,001 --> 00:54:10,921
Kiki.

535
00:54:12,441 --> 00:54:13,521
That's when…

536
00:54:15,201 --> 00:54:16,321
That's when we were in Berlin.

537
00:54:16,401 --> 00:54:17,481
You took the photos.

538
00:54:20,321 --> 00:54:21,681
You take good photos.

539
00:54:24,641 --> 00:54:25,881
Don't you?

540
00:54:27,561 --> 00:54:29,041
You know that?

541
00:54:44,401 --> 00:54:47,081
Does Dad cook?

542
00:54:47,201 --> 00:54:49,481
How do you manage?

543
00:54:52,201 --> 00:54:53,161
You cook?

544
00:54:58,961 --> 00:55:01,281
Can you say a sentence?

545
00:55:03,761 --> 00:55:04,601
Just one.

546
00:55:07,681 --> 00:55:08,681
Now and then.

547
00:55:13,481 --> 00:55:14,401
Who shops?

548
00:55:14,481 --> 00:55:15,841
Dad?

549
00:55:23,201 --> 00:55:24,161
You'll hurt yourself.

550
00:55:25,001 --> 00:55:26,241
Does it hurt?

551
00:55:26,361 --> 00:55:27,281
Your hand.

552
00:55:28,601 --> 00:55:29,641
You'll hurt your hand!

553
00:55:30,761 --> 00:55:31,601
I saw…

554
00:55:32,241 --> 00:55:33,361
I saw that!

555
00:55:49,961 --> 00:55:52,601
A bit of quiet!

556
00:55:55,321 --> 00:55:56,241
Gently.

557
00:55:57,361 --> 00:55:58,321
Play gently.

558
00:56:09,881 --> 00:56:10,761
You're crying.

559
00:56:13,561 --> 00:56:14,481
Why?

560
00:56:16,201 --> 00:56:17,641
What happened?

561
00:56:18,321 --> 00:56:19,441
She's not well.

562
00:56:19,521 --> 00:56:20,801
Did Kiki…

563
00:56:21,241 --> 00:56:22,881
scare you?

564
00:56:25,161 --> 00:56:26,481
Did Kiki scare you?

565
00:56:26,601 --> 00:56:28,241
Dad, don't say that.

566
00:56:28,321 --> 00:56:29,721
Kiki didn't make her cry.

567
00:56:29,881 --> 00:56:33,321
No, but he did a bit.

568
00:56:34,041 --> 00:56:35,601
He does things like that!

569
00:56:35,721 --> 00:56:36,721
He's playing.

570
00:56:36,801 --> 00:56:38,161
He's playing but in a way…

571
00:56:38,241 --> 00:56:40,241
Yes but… Don't get angry!

572
00:56:41,961 --> 00:56:42,961
Dad, calm down!

573
00:56:43,401 --> 00:56:44,881
He's playing but in a way…

574
00:56:46,081 --> 00:56:47,241
We're at table

575
00:56:47,521 --> 00:56:49,641
not in the street.

576
00:56:55,921 --> 00:56:56,881
Play quietly.

577
00:56:57,241 --> 00:56:58,681
Grandpa and Grandma are tired.

578
00:56:58,801 --> 00:57:00,761
Play quietly.

579
00:57:29,841 --> 00:57:30,761
My love…

580
00:57:35,081 --> 00:57:36,001
My love…

581
00:57:52,201 --> 00:57:53,121
Don't cry.

582
00:57:55,441 --> 00:57:58,081
I can't stand it.

583
00:58:00,961 --> 00:58:01,801
No.

584
00:58:08,881 --> 00:58:09,761
Feeling ok?

585
00:58:10,041 --> 00:58:10,881
You're ok?

586
00:58:26,921 --> 00:58:28,321
Yes, smile…

587
00:58:29,601 --> 00:58:30,761
Yes, smile…

588
00:58:34,321 --> 00:58:35,241
A little smile…

589
00:58:41,441 --> 00:58:43,321
Good, that's lovely.

590
00:58:44,161 --> 00:58:46,281
It's nice… It's beautiful.

591
00:58:49,201 --> 00:58:50,481
You are so nice…

592
00:58:52,041 --> 00:58:52,961
Beautiful…

593
00:59:02,201 --> 00:59:06,721
What can I do?

594
00:59:09,001 --> 00:59:09,881
Tell me.

595
00:59:10,321 --> 00:59:11,241
Say it.

596
00:59:11,961 --> 00:59:13,121
What can I do?

597
00:59:20,561 --> 00:59:21,401
Say it.

598
00:59:28,561 --> 00:59:30,841
I'll do it. Tell me.

599
00:59:39,681 --> 00:59:41,081
Be here.

600
00:59:41,801 --> 00:59:42,721
Be here?

601
00:59:42,921 --> 00:59:44,321
He is.

602
00:59:44,481 --> 00:59:45,761
Dad's here.

603
00:59:46,801 --> 00:59:48,361
All three of us are.

604
00:59:49,481 --> 00:59:50,961
All the family.

605
00:59:51,641 --> 00:59:53,161
With noisy Kiki.

606
00:59:53,281 --> 00:59:54,601
It's lovely.

607
00:59:55,201 --> 00:59:58,641
It's the most beautiful thing.

608
01:00:02,841 --> 01:00:03,841
Your son.

609
01:00:05,321 --> 01:00:06,321
Our son.

610
01:00:06,801 --> 01:00:07,761
So handsome!

611
01:00:13,041 --> 01:00:14,121
She's very ill.

612
01:00:15,281 --> 01:00:16,281
You've seen

613
01:00:16,681 --> 01:00:17,641
you know.

614
01:00:18,001 --> 01:00:20,041
I don't know.

615
01:00:20,681 --> 01:00:22,521
When I was here three weeks ago

616
01:00:22,601 --> 01:00:24,841
True.

617
01:00:26,161 --> 01:00:28,681
Every day, she's worse.

618
01:00:31,241 --> 01:00:33,401
It's a disease with no cure.

619
01:00:33,521 --> 01:00:36,281
No drugs, no pills.

620
01:00:36,401 --> 01:00:37,681
There are solutions.

621
01:00:38,001 --> 01:00:39,201
Solutions?

622
01:00:40,561 --> 01:00:41,841
they're like water.

623
01:00:42,521 --> 01:00:44,361
Yes, they are.

624
01:00:44,961 --> 01:00:46,641
Sit up.

625
01:00:47,841 --> 01:00:49,081
The psychiatrists say,

626
01:00:50,561 --> 01:00:51,401
they're like water.

627
01:00:51,481 --> 01:00:53,241
Have you seen someone?

628
01:00:53,361 --> 01:00:55,801
Yes, often.

629
01:00:56,201 --> 01:00:58,321
She's declining.

630
01:00:59,361 --> 01:01:03,481
Like this, downhill.

631
01:01:05,041 --> 01:01:06,201
Always…

632
01:01:08,281 --> 01:01:11,961
You didn't tell me it was getting worse.

633
01:01:14,441 --> 01:01:16,001
Why?

634
01:01:16,361 --> 01:01:19,441
Why worry you?

635
01:01:20,961 --> 01:01:25,361
You have your life… your son

636
01:01:25,721 --> 01:01:28,161
you have lots going on, your work.

637
01:01:28,361 --> 01:01:29,921
But Dad…

638
01:01:30,201 --> 01:01:31,441
You can't handle this alone.

639
01:01:31,761 --> 01:01:35,961
Mum is writing her own prescriptions.

640
01:01:36,961 --> 01:01:40,801
But the chemist knows her.

641
01:01:41,321 --> 01:01:42,641
When she goes in,

642
01:01:42,841 --> 01:01:47,841
he doesn't give her what she wants.

643
01:01:47,961 --> 01:01:52,361
Drugs that don't work.

644
01:01:53,481 --> 01:01:58,321
Or are bad for the brain.

645
01:01:59,081 --> 01:02:00,241
But you're…

646
01:02:01,241 --> 01:02:05,841
I follow her, but it's not easy.

647
01:02:14,441 --> 01:02:16,601
But I asked, I…

648
01:02:19,201 --> 01:02:20,681
You must be strong.

649
01:02:20,841 --> 01:02:21,921
I can't!

650
01:02:22,081 --> 01:02:23,161
You must be strong.

651
01:02:23,841 --> 01:02:26,481
Like I am, sometimes.

652
01:02:26,601 --> 01:02:27,441
Sometimes not.

653
01:02:27,601 --> 01:02:29,681
I called 10 days ago to see if you

654
01:02:29,801 --> 01:02:31,041
spoke to Nathalie.

655
01:02:31,161 --> 01:02:33,561
You said you did but you didn't.

656
01:02:35,361 --> 01:02:36,241
No, I didn't.

657
01:02:36,361 --> 01:02:37,241
I know you didn't.

658
01:02:37,361 --> 01:02:39,201
You say you're managing but you're not.

659
01:02:39,321 --> 01:02:40,161
No.

660
01:02:43,401 --> 01:02:44,241
Your wife…

661
01:02:44,361 --> 01:02:46,201
How is she?

662
01:02:46,441 --> 01:02:48,961
I told you she was in hospital.

663
01:02:50,001 --> 01:02:51,121
Again.

664
01:02:53,041 --> 01:02:54,161
Do you see her?

665
01:02:55,441 --> 01:02:57,001
Do you see her?

666
01:02:57,481 --> 01:03:00,281
When we do things for Kiki

667
01:03:00,441 --> 01:03:02,921
or with the social worker.

668
01:03:05,601 --> 01:03:10,321
Her last fit two months ago was

669
01:03:11,961 --> 01:03:13,681
violent.

670
01:03:15,721 --> 01:03:17,041
It was tough on Kiki.

671
01:03:18,961 --> 01:03:20,361
It's my fault.

672
01:03:20,761 --> 01:03:22,241
No, it's not.

673
01:03:23,241 --> 01:03:25,001
Illness is not our fault.

674
01:03:26,641 --> 01:03:28,761
Mum's illness isn't my fault.

675
01:03:29,481 --> 01:03:31,121
But the drugs, Dad…

676
01:03:32,881 --> 01:03:34,761
Your wife's illness isn't your fault.

677
01:03:37,321 --> 01:03:38,601
These things happen.

678
01:03:38,721 --> 01:03:39,841
It's fate.

679
01:03:40,561 --> 01:03:41,481
No.

680
01:03:41,641 --> 01:03:43,641
Yes, it's fate

681
01:03:44,201 --> 01:03:48,121
moving through the city.

682
01:03:48,761 --> 01:03:50,761
It moves

683
01:03:50,921 --> 01:03:51,881
then strikes.

684
01:03:55,281 --> 01:03:56,321
It acts

685
01:03:56,881 --> 01:03:59,041
and illness comes.

686
01:04:08,041 --> 01:04:09,841
And you, how's the money?

687
01:04:10,801 --> 01:04:14,001
There is none. It's gone.

688
01:04:16,921 --> 01:04:17,761
Really?

689
01:04:17,841 --> 01:04:19,121
I never have any.

690
01:04:20,201 --> 01:04:21,121
You know that.

691
01:04:22,761 --> 01:04:25,321
You didn't find a good job?

692
01:04:25,401 --> 01:04:27,081
Sure.

693
01:04:28,161 --> 01:04:31,081
I do a documentary

694
01:04:33,481 --> 01:04:37,481
or some editing stuff like that.

695
01:04:39,961 --> 01:04:41,321
It's fine.

696
01:04:41,921 --> 01:04:43,561
I get my benefits,

697
01:04:44,601 --> 01:04:45,601
I do enough hours.

698
01:04:45,721 --> 01:04:47,521
But I spend the money.

699
01:04:50,281 --> 01:04:52,081
It's the same for both of us.

700
01:04:53,961 --> 01:04:54,801
We're broke.

701
01:04:55,321 --> 01:04:56,201
Yes.

702
01:04:57,281 --> 01:04:59,321
To the future!

703
01:05:09,721 --> 01:05:11,281
Don't push it with Claire.

704
01:05:12,961 --> 01:05:15,041
It's extra hassle.

705
01:05:17,281 --> 01:05:21,241
I call, but she

706
01:05:21,361 --> 01:05:22,841
never answers.

707
01:05:23,681 --> 01:05:25,201
It's tricky for her.

708
01:05:25,361 --> 01:05:26,841
Of course.

709
01:05:27,601 --> 01:05:29,881
It's been 20 years

710
01:05:33,401 --> 01:05:34,281
us two.

711
01:05:35,241 --> 01:05:39,081
Our love… we travelled everywhere.

712
01:05:39,321 --> 01:05:42,001
It…

713
01:05:43,881 --> 01:05:46,001
meant a lot to me.

714
01:05:47,321 --> 01:05:48,801
But now

715
01:05:51,041 --> 01:05:52,801
it's almost over.

716
01:05:53,241 --> 01:05:56,161
Not yet, but almost.

717
01:06:04,081 --> 01:06:05,401
Not yet, but almost…

718
01:06:09,121 --> 01:06:10,561
an awkward life.

719
01:06:15,561 --> 01:06:17,161
Still smoking?

720
01:06:17,601 --> 01:06:18,481
Yes.

721
01:06:21,681 --> 01:06:24,241
Maybe I'll kill myself.

722
01:06:27,201 --> 01:06:31,601
Remember the issues I've had?

723
01:06:32,601 --> 01:06:34,721
Do you take your pills?

724
01:06:35,521 --> 01:06:37,601
Totally.

725
01:06:37,681 --> 01:06:40,161
Totally, every day.

726
01:06:40,561 --> 01:06:43,841
Four pills, always.

727
01:06:45,521 --> 01:06:47,201
Without them…

728
01:06:47,361 --> 01:06:49,081
It's too dangerous.

729
01:06:49,281 --> 01:06:50,241
I'll die.

730
01:06:51,961 --> 01:06:52,881
You?

731
01:06:53,081 --> 01:06:56,001
You take the drugs

732
01:06:56,081 --> 01:06:58,601
the doctor prescribed you?

733
01:06:59,961 --> 01:07:03,361
I have substitutes,

734
01:07:04,801 --> 01:07:06,121
but I don't like them.

735
01:07:09,761 --> 01:07:11,201
They just…

736
01:07:13,521 --> 01:07:16,641
there's no pain, but…

737
01:07:17,281 --> 01:07:18,201
it's crap.

738
01:07:24,161 --> 01:07:25,441
My son

739
01:07:26,561 --> 01:07:29,561
our house is full of drugs.

740
01:07:30,641 --> 01:07:31,801
And druggies.

741
01:07:34,241 --> 01:07:35,321
And Mum?

742
01:07:36,481 --> 01:07:38,521
She's the most…

743
01:07:39,121 --> 01:07:40,081
The least of us.

744
01:07:40,161 --> 01:07:41,201
Yes.

745
01:07:48,121 --> 01:07:50,481
Be careful with what she takes.

746
01:07:50,681 --> 01:07:52,321
Don't get mixed up.

747
01:07:53,681 --> 01:07:55,601
She's taking super strong drugs.

748
01:07:56,361 --> 01:07:57,361
I know.

749
01:07:58,401 --> 01:08:00,361
I know the pills

750
01:08:00,961 --> 01:08:02,161
are very strong.

751
01:08:03,121 --> 01:08:05,121
I'm very careful.

752
01:08:16,681 --> 01:08:17,681
It's a life.

753
01:08:19,601 --> 01:08:22,241
It's a life among drugs.

754
01:08:25,321 --> 01:08:26,481
We're really

755
01:08:28,801 --> 01:08:29,761
almost…

756
01:08:30,641 --> 01:08:32,561
slaves to drugs.

757
01:08:43,481 --> 01:08:44,841
You know…

758
01:08:47,041 --> 01:08:48,641
he doesn't sleep at night.

759
01:08:53,001 --> 01:08:54,241
He's crazy.

760
01:08:57,321 --> 01:08:58,601
Why?

761
01:09:03,281 --> 01:09:05,281
There are papers everywhere!

762
01:09:08,321 --> 01:09:09,361
A total mess.

763
01:09:15,281 --> 01:09:18,681
I try to tidy

764
01:09:20,361 --> 01:09:21,641
but I can't.

765
01:09:23,561 --> 01:09:25,361
You don't have to tidy.

766
01:09:26,441 --> 01:09:27,881
I go crazy.

767
01:09:33,081 --> 01:09:37,041
So, what I'm going to do…

768
01:09:39,281 --> 01:09:41,641
is prescribe him Neuropax.

769
01:09:41,721 --> 01:09:42,561
No.

770
01:09:42,641 --> 01:09:43,641
Yes!

771
01:09:43,761 --> 01:09:45,241
Don't do that.

772
01:09:45,801 --> 01:09:47,241
I can do it.

773
01:09:55,321 --> 01:09:58,681
It's good when you're here.

774
01:10:08,881 --> 01:10:11,321
You'll see Nathalie

775
01:10:12,201 --> 01:10:13,801
for prescriptions.

776
01:10:13,921 --> 01:10:16,161
You can't do them anymore.

777
01:10:17,881 --> 01:10:19,881
I can, they know me at the chemists.

778
01:10:21,401 --> 01:10:22,801
I have my doctor's card.

779
01:10:26,521 --> 01:10:28,041
Can I take this for Kiki?

780
01:10:29,161 --> 01:10:30,281
Take what you want.

781
01:10:30,401 --> 01:10:31,561
If he turns hungry later.

782
01:10:31,681 --> 01:10:33,161
And a yoghurt.

783
01:10:34,521 --> 01:10:35,601
Take more.

784
01:10:47,241 --> 01:10:49,041
Do you have to go?

785
01:10:51,481 --> 01:10:52,401
Yes.

786
01:10:53,041 --> 01:10:55,641
She's fetching him tomorrow.

787
01:10:57,041 --> 01:11:00,001
You could sleep here.

788
01:11:01,801 --> 01:11:03,921
Not tonight.

789
01:11:26,441 --> 01:11:30,161
Kiki… put your cars away.

790
01:11:32,401 --> 01:11:33,281
We're leaving.

791
01:11:34,721 --> 01:11:36,321
Coming?

792
01:11:47,521 --> 01:11:48,361
Ok?

793
01:11:50,001 --> 01:11:51,401
Kiki and I are going.

794
01:11:54,241 --> 01:11:55,121
You're off.

795
01:11:55,241 --> 01:11:56,081
Yes.

796
01:11:57,761 --> 01:12:00,201
Can you lend me 200?

797
01:12:01,961 --> 01:12:03,801
My card was eaten,

798
01:12:03,961 --> 01:12:04,961
stupid me.

799
01:12:20,401 --> 01:12:23,001
Be careful with the drugs

800
01:12:23,121 --> 01:12:25,001
Mum gives you.

801
01:12:28,081 --> 01:12:30,881
Drugs? You think she'll

802
01:12:31,761 --> 01:12:32,881
poison me?

803
01:12:33,761 --> 01:12:35,001
No!

804
01:12:35,161 --> 01:12:37,001
No, she doesn't want to poison you.

805
01:12:37,881 --> 01:12:38,881
She…

806
01:12:39,921 --> 01:12:41,641
she thinks she's still a doctor

807
01:12:41,801 --> 01:12:43,161
and can prescribe.

808
01:12:44,161 --> 01:12:45,041
She's mixed up.

809
01:12:46,721 --> 01:12:49,321
So, keep your pills separate.

810
01:12:50,001 --> 01:12:51,161
Be careful.

811
01:12:51,841 --> 01:12:52,721
Thanks.

812
01:12:54,401 --> 01:12:55,281
Love you.

813
01:12:55,361 --> 01:12:56,201
Me too.

814
01:16:36,801 --> 01:16:37,801
I smell gas.

815
01:16:38,921 --> 01:16:39,881
Gas!

816
01:16:40,681 --> 01:16:41,681
What have you done?

817
01:16:42,481 --> 01:16:43,361
Gas!

818
01:17:12,881 --> 01:17:14,081
What have you done?

819
01:17:16,281 --> 01:17:17,361
You're mad!

820
01:17:17,481 --> 01:17:18,641
It's ok.

821
01:17:19,761 --> 01:17:20,801
Mad!

822
01:22:46,521 --> 01:22:48,041
I've tidied your desk.

823
01:22:48,881 --> 01:22:49,921
What?

824
01:22:50,081 --> 01:22:51,281
Tidied your desk…

825
01:22:52,041 --> 01:22:53,201
My papers!

826
01:22:54,401 --> 01:22:56,121
On the desk!

827
01:22:57,721 --> 01:23:00,641
You put them in the toilet!

828
01:23:03,361 --> 01:23:05,241
That's…

829
01:23:09,521 --> 01:23:10,561
A disaster!

830
01:23:13,881 --> 01:23:15,401
A total disaster!

831
01:23:16,481 --> 01:23:17,681
You want to kill me.

832
01:23:18,721 --> 01:23:19,561
Always!

833
01:23:23,761 --> 01:23:26,041
This house is…

834
01:23:31,841 --> 01:23:33,881
A real nightmare.

835
01:23:46,801 --> 01:23:47,761
You destroyed

836
01:23:50,321 --> 01:23:52,801
my papers, my book…

837
01:23:59,401 --> 01:24:00,401
All my papers.

838
01:24:01,601 --> 01:24:03,041
All I wrote.

839
01:24:09,601 --> 01:24:11,561
I can't say you are mad.

840
01:24:11,761 --> 01:24:13,161
You're worse!

841
01:25:22,921 --> 01:25:25,681
Dad, I don't know how to help.

842
01:25:27,481 --> 01:25:29,441
You are getting into a stage…

843
01:25:29,641 --> 01:25:31,601
where mum is losing it.

844
01:25:31,721 --> 01:25:34,121
You had heart problems.

845
01:25:34,961 --> 01:25:36,361
It was bad.

846
01:25:36,601 --> 01:25:38,481
And it's getting worse for both of you.

847
01:25:40,121 --> 01:25:46,001
Since I'm worried for Mum,

848
01:25:46,841 --> 01:25:49,161
she told me about a home

849
01:25:50,761 --> 01:25:52,881
where you can have your things.

850
01:25:53,001 --> 01:25:54,361
They're flats,

851
01:25:55,761 --> 01:25:59,241
with nurses and carers,

852
01:25:59,401 --> 01:26:02,161
psychologists, psychiatrists.

853
01:26:03,121 --> 01:26:06,441
There's room for two

854
01:26:09,081 --> 01:26:12,481
available in…

855
01:26:14,441 --> 01:26:17,041
a month or two.

856
01:26:17,361 --> 01:26:19,681
It's rare to find a place for two.

857
01:26:19,841 --> 01:26:22,001
But I…

858
01:26:22,241 --> 01:26:23,521
don't want that.

859
01:26:24,441 --> 01:26:27,161
I don't want to leave this house…

860
01:26:28,201 --> 01:26:30,481
We've spent our lives here.

861
01:26:30,961 --> 01:26:32,601
It holds

862
01:26:33,521 --> 01:26:35,961
our past, our things

863
01:26:36,561 --> 01:26:39,081
reminders of our lives.

864
01:26:39,801 --> 01:26:41,881
Mine, hers.

865
01:26:43,401 --> 01:26:47,281
Our work our books.

866
01:26:47,401 --> 01:26:51,481
All this is part of our…

867
01:26:53,441 --> 01:26:54,361
life.

868
01:26:55,081 --> 01:26:57,561
We can't leave this house.

869
01:26:57,721 --> 01:26:59,081
You can take things.

870
01:26:59,521 --> 01:27:03,921
Hundreds of books?

871
01:27:04,361 --> 01:27:07,161
Journals, magazines.

872
01:27:07,281 --> 01:27:09,441
We can't!

873
01:27:09,761 --> 01:27:13,361
We'd throw most away.

874
01:27:13,641 --> 01:27:17,201
I don't throw away my past.

875
01:27:19,681 --> 01:27:21,001
I work.

876
01:27:21,281 --> 01:27:22,641
You can work there.

877
01:27:22,801 --> 01:27:25,481
No, I can't,

878
01:27:25,841 --> 01:27:28,561
you're deluded.

879
01:27:28,681 --> 01:27:30,641
Impossible.

880
01:27:31,321 --> 01:27:34,361
I won't go with

881
01:27:34,481 --> 01:27:38,881
my wife to a flat that's a hospital

882
01:27:42,761 --> 01:27:46,441
for people wrong in the head.

883
01:27:46,881 --> 01:27:49,601
Mum is wrong in the head.

884
01:27:49,921 --> 01:27:55,521
She's bad due to an incurable disease

885
01:27:57,161 --> 01:27:58,201
which is well known.

886
01:27:58,561 --> 01:28:05,201
Young psychiatrists specialise in it.

887
01:28:05,441 --> 01:28:06,921
Have you called them?

888
01:28:07,161 --> 01:28:09,401
Yes, I have.

889
01:28:09,601 --> 01:28:10,561
Yes, I have a list.

890
01:28:10,721 --> 01:28:12,121
Nathalie says not.

891
01:28:14,361 --> 01:28:16,401
But I have a list

892
01:28:16,561 --> 01:28:18,401
of young psychiatrists

893
01:28:18,761 --> 01:28:21,601
specialised in this disease.

894
01:28:22,481 --> 01:28:24,201
We've spoken.

895
01:28:24,561 --> 01:28:28,881
There's no cure.

896
01:28:30,401 --> 01:28:32,641
You can't manage alone.

897
01:28:32,801 --> 01:28:35,121
Don't say you call them, you don't.

898
01:28:35,441 --> 01:28:36,761
I called.

899
01:28:36,921 --> 01:28:38,481
To get a list!

900
01:28:38,641 --> 01:28:40,881
A long list in the office.

901
01:28:41,201 --> 01:28:43,641
You called, but Mum hasn't seen anyone.

902
01:28:43,841 --> 01:28:45,401
Have you seen a psychiatrist?

903
01:28:47,681 --> 01:28:49,201
Mum, have you seen a psychiatrist?

904
01:28:49,321 --> 01:28:51,761
I talked to one.

905
01:28:51,881 --> 01:28:54,761
I don't care if you called.

906
01:28:55,121 --> 01:28:56,081
Stop.

907
01:28:56,201 --> 01:28:58,921
I met one

908
01:28:59,921 --> 01:29:01,001
in the lab.

909
01:29:02,401 --> 01:29:04,041
I've talked about it.

910
01:29:04,961 --> 01:29:07,321
Everyone knows this disease.

911
01:29:07,441 --> 01:29:10,081
It's well known.

912
01:29:12,961 --> 01:29:14,201
To everyone.

913
01:29:17,361 --> 01:29:18,201
Dad…

914
01:29:20,681 --> 01:29:22,521
It's be better if I was…

915
01:29:24,161 --> 01:29:25,241
dead.

916
01:29:25,481 --> 01:29:27,841
Don't say that.

917
01:29:28,561 --> 01:29:30,361
Don't,

918
01:29:30,801 --> 01:29:33,521
it's not true.

919
01:29:34,161 --> 01:29:36,641
You're with us.

920
01:29:37,561 --> 01:29:39,121
Alive, talking

921
01:29:39,361 --> 01:29:40,721
moving forwards.

922
01:29:41,041 --> 01:29:42,961
You have a past to share.

923
01:29:43,881 --> 01:29:44,721
No.

924
01:29:45,041 --> 01:29:46,241
Sorry.

925
01:29:47,041 --> 01:29:48,961
I'm really sorry.

926
01:29:50,081 --> 01:29:51,801
Don't be, Mum.

927
01:29:51,961 --> 01:29:55,521
We're looking for solutions,

928
01:29:55,641 --> 01:29:56,761
good ones.

929
01:29:58,081 --> 01:30:01,481
Dad, I can't help you properly.

930
01:30:01,641 --> 01:30:03,081
I can't.

931
01:30:06,081 --> 01:30:08,201
If Mum falls over…

932
01:30:09,281 --> 01:30:11,201
You never come over

933
01:30:11,521 --> 01:30:13,601
almost never.

934
01:30:13,841 --> 01:30:15,601
Yes, I do, whenever I can.

935
01:30:17,681 --> 01:30:19,761
I don't want to be mean

936
01:30:19,841 --> 01:30:23,321
but if anyone has to go

937
01:30:25,441 --> 01:30:28,121
to a clinic, a hospital…

938
01:30:28,321 --> 01:30:30,721
or a home,

939
01:30:30,841 --> 01:30:31,921
it's you!

940
01:30:32,841 --> 01:30:37,401
You have problems to solve.

941
01:30:37,601 --> 01:30:38,841
But Dad, I tried!

942
01:30:39,361 --> 01:30:41,761
Stop!

943
01:30:42,681 --> 01:30:43,841
It's ok.

944
01:30:44,801 --> 01:30:46,521
It's the first time we've talked,

945
01:30:46,681 --> 01:30:47,841
it's important.

946
01:30:48,961 --> 01:30:50,561
It's the first time we

947
01:30:50,841 --> 01:30:52,841
open our souls.

948
01:30:56,361 --> 01:30:57,201
The first time.

949
01:30:57,281 --> 01:30:58,121
I'm sorry.

950
01:30:58,201 --> 01:30:59,201
Don't be.

951
01:31:00,521 --> 01:31:01,841
Dad, when I…

952
01:31:02,721 --> 01:31:04,121
I'm not against you.

953
01:31:04,401 --> 01:31:05,601
That's not the point!

954
01:31:06,561 --> 01:31:07,761
I'm not.

955
01:31:10,161 --> 01:31:12,921
You don't want to be mean,

956
01:31:14,921 --> 01:31:20,721
but it's silly to say I should be in a clinic.

957
01:31:21,561 --> 01:31:22,601
That's not the point.

958
01:31:23,161 --> 01:31:25,001
It's not!

959
01:31:25,081 --> 01:31:26,521
I'm trying…

960
01:31:28,841 --> 01:31:30,161
I help at the association,

961
01:31:30,281 --> 01:31:31,641
I have a social worker.

962
01:31:32,841 --> 01:31:36,401
I don't come much because I'm trying

963
01:31:38,881 --> 01:31:40,161
to get organised.

964
01:31:45,721 --> 01:31:47,641
When I went…

965
01:31:48,401 --> 01:31:49,241
Mum…

966
01:31:49,761 --> 01:31:50,721
Sorry.

967
01:31:53,841 --> 01:31:54,881
For what?

968
01:31:56,401 --> 01:31:57,361
For what?

969
01:31:58,521 --> 01:32:00,161
You're not guilty.

970
01:32:01,601 --> 01:32:02,481
Of anything.

971
01:32:05,361 --> 01:32:07,441
When you…

972
01:32:08,961 --> 01:32:11,521
put me in the mental hospital.

973
01:32:15,001 --> 01:32:16,921
You were doing your best.

974
01:32:19,801 --> 01:32:20,801
For you!

975
01:32:20,921 --> 01:32:23,241
You didn't say it was a cage or a prison.

976
01:32:24,401 --> 01:32:25,601
You meant well.

977
01:32:26,841 --> 01:32:27,881
For a while

978
01:32:28,081 --> 01:32:29,761
just a time.

979
01:32:29,881 --> 01:32:31,001
Listen to me.

980
01:32:31,241 --> 01:32:32,321
That's irrelevant.

981
01:32:32,801 --> 01:32:34,241
It was a mental hospital.

982
01:32:34,561 --> 01:32:36,361
You meant well and it was good.

983
01:32:36,481 --> 01:32:37,561
From then on

984
01:32:37,801 --> 01:32:40,201
even though I didn't…

985
01:32:42,201 --> 01:32:44,481
Things happened.

986
01:32:45,441 --> 01:32:48,121
I had bearings, support

987
01:32:50,241 --> 01:32:55,201
I could do things healthily

988
01:32:56,921 --> 01:32:58,041
You meant well.

989
01:33:01,001 --> 01:33:04,721
I can't take care of you properly.

990
01:33:04,881 --> 01:33:07,561
If Mum falls, you can't pick her up.

991
01:33:07,681 --> 01:33:09,161
If she's lost, you don't know where to go.

992
01:33:09,321 --> 01:33:11,201
If you fall

993
01:33:11,321 --> 01:33:12,921
you had a stroke 3 years ago,

994
01:33:13,041 --> 01:33:15,081
if you fall, what does Mum do?

995
01:33:15,281 --> 01:33:17,841
Sometimes she doesn't know who she is,

996
01:33:17,921 --> 01:33:19,281
or you, or the neighbour!

997
01:33:21,561 --> 01:33:22,641
True?

998
01:33:24,561 --> 01:33:26,121
I'm dealing with it.

999
01:33:27,041 --> 01:33:29,561
I've asked my friends,

1000
01:33:29,681 --> 01:33:33,081
journalists, writers, important people,

1001
01:33:35,041 --> 01:33:36,201
for a man,

1002
01:33:36,321 --> 01:33:38,001
not a woman, too weak

1003
01:33:38,161 --> 01:33:40,481
a strong man who can

1004
01:33:40,801 --> 01:33:44,761
help pick her up if need be,

1005
01:33:44,881 --> 01:33:46,961
go out with her in the street.

1006
01:33:48,441 --> 01:33:49,721
You've met them?

1007
01:33:49,841 --> 01:33:52,401
No, I have names a list.

1008
01:33:52,561 --> 01:33:54,361
Just names and lists!

1009
01:33:55,201 --> 01:33:58,801
A man in particular,

1010
01:33:58,961 --> 01:34:01,161
who lived with a family,

1011
01:34:02,161 --> 01:34:03,281
everyone knows him,

1012
01:34:03,361 --> 01:34:06,081
they say he's a good man.

1013
01:34:06,201 --> 01:34:07,721
So what?

1014
01:34:10,601 --> 01:34:14,121
And I found a new psychiatrist.

1015
01:34:14,641 --> 01:34:16,081
I have a list!

1016
01:34:16,161 --> 01:34:17,281
Dad, I'm…

1017
01:34:18,201 --> 01:34:19,841
I'm not getting at you.

1018
01:34:23,401 --> 01:34:25,881
I'm not.

1019
01:34:26,001 --> 01:34:27,121
I know you're trying.

1020
01:34:27,241 --> 01:34:29,601
You make lists, you call,

1021
01:34:29,721 --> 01:34:32,241
but no-one is here to help you.

1022
01:34:33,601 --> 01:34:37,841
You told me I often lied to you.

1023
01:34:38,081 --> 01:34:39,361
Right?

1024
01:34:42,881 --> 01:34:46,761
I'd lie so you wouldn't worry.

1025
01:34:47,041 --> 01:34:48,281
Now you're lying, Dad.

1026
01:34:51,521 --> 01:34:52,881
Don't say you're not.

1027
01:34:54,001 --> 01:34:55,921
I know you make lists.

1028
01:34:58,521 --> 01:35:01,681
But I can't help you.

1029
01:35:01,801 --> 01:35:03,041
I can't even help myself!

1030
01:35:06,241 --> 01:35:08,841
Kiki we have a custody worker

1031
01:35:08,921 --> 01:35:10,681
who says you can or can't do this.

1032
01:35:10,801 --> 01:35:12,281
I can't help you.

1033
01:35:12,401 --> 01:35:15,761
The little I do, you don't follow up.

1034
01:35:17,201 --> 01:35:18,561
You say you make lists,

1035
01:35:18,641 --> 01:35:20,041
I trust you, I know you do!

1036
01:35:20,121 --> 01:35:23,321
I want someone more capable than me

1037
01:35:23,401 --> 01:35:25,601
or you two to help.

1038
01:35:29,241 --> 01:35:31,441
Let's make her feel…

1039
01:35:32,641 --> 01:35:33,521
good.

1040
01:35:34,361 --> 01:35:35,961
Good…

1041
01:35:41,481 --> 01:35:45,201
Your son and your husband love you.

1042
01:35:45,921 --> 01:35:46,841
For sure.

1043
01:35:46,961 --> 01:35:48,641
They'll help you.

1044
01:35:50,321 --> 01:35:51,521
Dad,

1045
01:35:51,761 --> 01:35:53,401
I don't want

1046
01:35:54,401 --> 01:35:57,041
to lecture, ok?

1047
01:35:58,401 --> 01:35:59,561
Everyone.

1048
01:36:00,401 --> 01:36:01,961
I just…

1049
01:36:02,161 --> 01:36:05,441
Mum is lucid today,

1050
01:36:05,841 --> 01:36:08,161
she's stable

1051
01:36:08,321 --> 01:36:14,161
I want us to talk

1052
01:36:14,921 --> 01:36:16,201
you who like lists

1053
01:36:16,281 --> 01:36:17,441
let's list good ideas.

1054
01:36:17,561 --> 01:36:19,401
Just good ones.

1055
01:36:19,801 --> 01:36:22,841
Don't reject it all.

1056
01:36:23,001 --> 01:36:24,961
Maybe a home is not a good idea.

1057
01:36:26,881 --> 01:36:30,281
Maybe there are ideas there,

1058
01:36:30,401 --> 01:36:32,801
with carers, we could ask.

1059
01:36:32,921 --> 01:36:35,761
If not that home, another one?

1060
01:36:36,401 --> 01:36:39,761
I want us to agree on a process.

1061
01:36:39,921 --> 01:36:42,441
I want you to…

1062
01:36:43,321 --> 01:36:45,121
be rid of me.

1063
01:36:47,561 --> 01:36:49,281
What do you mean?

1064
01:36:53,041 --> 01:36:55,281
Of course, it's tiring and tense,

1065
01:36:55,401 --> 01:36:57,081
but we're talking!

1066
01:36:57,161 --> 01:36:59,041
If we don't, it's crap.

1067
01:37:00,161 --> 01:37:01,641
You'd have talked to your patients.

1068
01:37:01,761 --> 01:37:02,721
Wouldn't you?

1069
01:37:04,241 --> 01:37:06,681
You'd have talked to your patients.

1070
01:37:06,841 --> 01:37:08,801
You'd say: "something's wrong."

1071
01:37:09,081 --> 01:37:11,721
"We can do this, change that"

1072
01:37:12,081 --> 01:37:12,961
Yes or no?

1073
01:37:16,241 --> 01:37:17,161
Yes.

1074
01:37:18,001 --> 01:37:21,441
Us too, awkwardly perhaps,

1075
01:37:21,521 --> 01:37:23,441
because Dad is Italian and shouts.

1076
01:37:25,681 --> 01:37:26,801
And I'm stubborn.

1077
01:37:29,761 --> 01:37:30,641
Dad?

1078
01:37:33,361 --> 01:37:34,881
We're clumsy, that's all.

1079
01:37:35,041 --> 01:37:36,201
Talking is important.

1080
01:37:41,681 --> 01:37:42,681
It would be…

1081
01:37:42,961 --> 01:37:44,641
We're a small family

1082
01:37:45,641 --> 01:37:46,601
really small…

1083
01:37:46,761 --> 01:37:47,641
Not big!

1084
01:37:47,761 --> 01:37:48,881
Three people.

1085
01:37:49,641 --> 01:37:50,481
And Kiki.

1086
01:37:52,801 --> 01:37:53,681
No-one else.

1087
01:37:56,321 --> 01:37:58,361
I'm a bit tired.

1088
01:37:58,561 --> 01:37:59,721
You're tired?

1089
01:38:00,001 --> 01:38:00,921
A bit.

1090
01:38:01,041 --> 01:38:03,801
Want a coffee, a tea?

1091
01:38:04,081 --> 01:38:04,961
Yes.

1092
01:38:05,081 --> 01:38:06,281
Dad, a coffee?

1093
01:38:06,641 --> 01:38:08,761
No, thanks. Water.

1094
01:38:11,761 --> 01:38:14,601
Let's…

1095
01:38:16,681 --> 01:38:18,601
pretend it's normal.

1096
01:38:29,201 --> 01:38:30,041
Do you have a…

1097
01:38:30,121 --> 01:38:30,961
No!

1098
01:38:31,041 --> 01:38:31,881
… cigarette?

1099
01:39:13,561 --> 01:39:15,441
Got any kits?

1100
01:39:15,881 --> 01:39:18,121
We need 2 or 3 shoot kits.

1101
01:39:18,241 --> 01:39:19,241
2 or 3?

1102
01:39:19,361 --> 01:39:20,641
Go for 3.

1103
01:39:21,801 --> 01:39:22,721
Thanks.

1104
01:39:22,921 --> 01:39:24,841
And a crack pipe.

1105
01:39:27,681 --> 01:39:29,721
Need a stick?

1106
01:39:29,881 --> 01:39:32,081
Sure, why not.

1107
01:39:33,161 --> 01:39:35,121
Paper towels, water?

1108
01:39:35,241 --> 01:39:36,921
No.

1109
01:39:38,481 --> 01:39:39,321
We're cool.

1110
01:39:39,881 --> 01:39:41,241
Ok, take care.

1111
01:39:45,161 --> 01:39:46,921
Lots of needles today!

1112
01:39:52,561 --> 01:39:53,881
Few people now.

1113
01:39:58,481 --> 01:40:00,081
How's your Mum?

1114
01:40:05,241 --> 01:40:06,321
Old age sucks.

1115
01:40:06,681 --> 01:40:07,721
No kidding.

1116
01:40:08,881 --> 01:40:11,601
Age or smack, how to choose?

1117
01:40:13,401 --> 01:40:14,441
We don't choose.

1118
01:40:15,281 --> 01:40:16,881
She takes more drugs…

1119
01:40:18,281 --> 01:40:20,041
than us or them.

1120
01:40:23,881 --> 01:40:25,961
Can you handle it?

1121
01:40:26,241 --> 01:40:27,321
Not great.

1122
01:40:35,881 --> 01:40:36,881
Come on…

1123
01:40:37,921 --> 01:40:38,841
Hello.

1124
01:40:39,001 --> 01:40:39,881
We're closing.

1125
01:40:40,001 --> 01:40:41,641
Give me some kit.

1126
01:40:43,401 --> 01:40:44,241
Please.

1127
01:40:44,361 --> 01:40:45,721
One each.

1128
01:40:46,041 --> 01:40:47,001
We're closing.

1129
01:40:47,241 --> 01:40:48,081
Sticks?

1130
01:40:48,201 --> 01:40:49,081
For my friend!

1131
01:40:49,161 --> 01:40:50,401
You know the score.

1132
01:40:50,521 --> 01:40:52,961
He's coming!

1133
01:40:53,081 --> 01:40:56,321
So when?

1134
01:40:56,881 --> 01:40:57,921
He'll come alone.

1135
01:40:58,161 --> 01:40:59,521
We're here tomorrow.

1136
01:40:59,601 --> 01:41:00,761
Ok.

1137
01:41:00,881 --> 01:41:02,281
Tell him to come.

1138
01:41:02,361 --> 01:41:03,201
Ok.

1139
01:41:03,281 --> 01:41:04,241
We're here every day.

1140
01:41:04,681 --> 01:41:05,601
Bye.

1141
01:41:05,681 --> 01:41:06,841
Take care, guys.

1142
01:41:09,201 --> 01:41:10,721
Closing time.

1143
01:41:15,121 --> 01:41:17,241
The memory of film. That's our next issue.

1144
01:41:17,401 --> 01:41:19,081
And we could use it

1145
01:41:19,201 --> 01:41:20,041
to get some money.

1146
01:41:20,201 --> 01:41:21,961
We are the memory of film.

1147
01:41:22,521 --> 01:41:24,801
You, you are writing a book, no?

1148
01:41:25,761 --> 01:41:28,001
I'm writing a book.

1149
01:41:28,681 --> 01:41:30,241
A book on…

1150
01:41:30,401 --> 01:41:32,521
on film and dreams.

1151
01:41:32,681 --> 01:41:34,281
Great!

1152
01:41:35,001 --> 01:41:36,401
Dreams, memory.

1153
01:41:37,321 --> 01:41:38,281
What fires dreams?

1154
01:41:38,401 --> 01:41:39,241
It's not the same.

1155
01:41:39,481 --> 01:41:40,401
No, it's not the same.

1156
01:41:40,481 --> 01:41:42,721
It's different.

1157
01:41:43,241 --> 01:41:44,601
It's totally linked.

1158
01:41:44,721 --> 01:41:45,881
It's totally different.

1159
01:41:46,641 --> 01:41:48,081
Coffee?

1160
01:41:49,201 --> 01:41:50,041
Me.

1161
01:41:53,121 --> 01:41:54,001
Excuse me.

1162
01:41:55,241 --> 01:41:56,161
How's your wife?

1163
01:41:56,801 --> 01:41:57,681
Not good.

1164
01:41:58,321 --> 01:41:59,201
At all.

1165
01:42:18,401 --> 01:42:19,281
What is it?

1166
01:42:19,601 --> 01:42:21,041
What is it?

1167
01:42:21,601 --> 01:42:22,681
You're avoiding me.

1168
01:42:22,841 --> 01:42:24,601
That's what.

1169
01:42:24,761 --> 01:42:26,521
We can't talk about it here.

1170
01:42:35,961 --> 01:42:37,321
Is something up?

1171
01:42:37,401 --> 01:42:38,281
No.

1172
01:42:38,361 --> 01:42:39,201
Really?

1173
01:42:40,401 --> 01:42:42,521
We need a break.

1174
01:42:44,041 --> 01:42:45,321
I still love you.

1175
01:42:45,481 --> 01:42:47,241
Always.

1176
01:42:47,641 --> 01:42:50,161
I'm so fond of you.

1177
01:42:50,881 --> 01:42:51,801
Truly.

1178
01:42:52,801 --> 01:42:53,721
Deeply.

1179
01:42:53,801 --> 01:42:55,121
I know, me too.

1180
01:42:55,921 --> 01:42:57,601
It breaks my heart.

1181
01:42:57,761 --> 01:42:59,601
I miss you.

1182
01:43:00,001 --> 01:43:02,521
Your kindness, your love.

1183
01:43:06,521 --> 01:43:07,561
Your tenderness.

1184
01:43:16,441 --> 01:43:17,881
We must go back.

1185
01:43:56,081 --> 01:43:57,041
Steph!

1186
01:43:58,081 --> 01:43:59,401
Can I come to yours?

1187
01:43:59,521 --> 01:44:00,601
No.

1188
01:44:00,881 --> 01:44:02,001
Can I smoke at yours?

1189
01:44:02,161 --> 01:44:03,561
Please.

1190
01:44:04,401 --> 01:44:06,401
Let me in, please.

1191
01:44:07,641 --> 01:44:08,841
If you want something.

1192
01:44:09,001 --> 01:44:10,921
Smack, I can get you smack.

1193
01:44:11,201 --> 01:44:13,921
I know a guy, he's got mean shit!

1194
01:44:16,001 --> 01:44:18,481
Shoots up a dream.

1195
01:44:19,721 --> 01:44:21,401
It's clean.

1196
01:44:21,641 --> 01:44:24,281
The guy is not far away.

1197
01:44:24,401 --> 01:44:26,201
I'll score it for you.

1198
01:44:26,321 --> 01:44:27,521
No money.

1199
01:44:27,841 --> 01:44:31,041
Well whenever you want.

1200
01:44:31,161 --> 01:44:32,081
I'm here.

1201
01:44:32,241 --> 01:44:34,641
Let me smoke inside.

1202
01:44:34,721 --> 01:44:37,121
If you change your mind

1203
01:44:37,441 --> 01:44:39,281
I'm here.

1204
01:44:40,281 --> 01:44:41,241
Go on!

1205
01:44:41,321 --> 01:44:42,481
Ok, come in.

1206
01:46:33,881 --> 01:46:34,921
Oh God.

1207
01:50:04,201 --> 01:50:05,161
What are you doing?

1208
01:50:09,281 --> 01:50:10,481
I'm in pain.

1209
01:50:12,681 --> 01:50:13,841
My heart.

1210
01:50:19,121 --> 01:50:20,161
I'll just…

1211
01:50:25,161 --> 01:50:26,001
Good.

1212
01:50:26,081 --> 01:50:26,921
That's better.

1213
01:50:27,521 --> 01:50:28,361
Yes.

1214
01:50:36,601 --> 01:50:39,961
What can I do?

1215
01:50:41,521 --> 01:50:43,601
Call an ambulance.

1216
01:51:10,121 --> 01:51:11,561
I'm calling.

1217
01:51:12,321 --> 01:51:13,481
Stéphane.

1218
01:51:15,161 --> 01:51:16,441
Zero.

1219
01:51:17,161 --> 01:51:18,201
Six.

1220
01:51:19,641 --> 01:51:20,761
Six.

1221
01:51:21,121 --> 01:51:22,241
Five.

1222
01:51:23,041 --> 01:51:24,081
Seven.

1223
01:51:25,161 --> 01:51:26,401
Four.

1224
01:51:27,081 --> 01:51:28,281
Seven.

1225
01:51:28,881 --> 01:51:30,161
Six.

1226
01:51:32,041 --> 01:51:32,961
Four.

1227
01:51:33,441 --> 01:51:34,441
Five.

1228
01:51:34,561 --> 01:51:35,681
It's ok.

1229
01:51:41,761 --> 01:51:42,681
Stéphane?

1230
01:51:42,801 --> 01:51:43,881
Stéphane…

1231
01:51:45,561 --> 01:51:46,841
it's Mum.

1232
01:51:48,841 --> 01:51:50,601
Dad had a fall

1233
01:51:51,361 --> 01:51:52,721
in his office.

1234
01:51:55,281 --> 01:51:56,521
Call…

1235
01:51:58,041 --> 01:51:59,521
for an ambulance.

1236
01:52:00,201 --> 01:52:01,601
Call for an ambulance.

1237
01:52:02,241 --> 01:52:05,001
Fast. And come.

1238
01:52:07,081 --> 01:52:09,401
I don't know.

1239
01:52:10,201 --> 01:52:11,161
Come over.

1240
01:52:15,961 --> 01:52:18,281
He'll deal with it.

1241
01:52:20,161 --> 01:52:21,001
Good.

1242
01:52:22,281 --> 01:52:24,161
Are you cold?

1243
01:52:27,081 --> 01:52:28,041
Ok?

1244
01:52:29,161 --> 01:52:30,321
Breathe.

1245
01:55:53,441 --> 01:55:55,601
I'm nearby if you need me.

1246
01:55:57,041 --> 01:55:58,281
Thanks.

1247
01:56:29,161 --> 01:56:30,681
I'll leave you with your son.

1248
01:56:59,161 --> 01:57:00,321
I'm here.

1249
01:57:30,761 --> 01:57:32,561
Is he alright?

1250
01:57:42,041 --> 01:57:43,441
Are you?

1251
02:03:34,441 --> 02:03:35,321
Darling?

1252
02:03:37,801 --> 02:03:38,681
Darling?

1253
02:04:29,161 --> 02:04:30,241
What's the matter?

1254
02:04:33,841 --> 02:04:35,201
Your husband's gone.

1255
02:04:37,401 --> 02:04:38,601
He won't be back.

1256
02:04:39,721 --> 02:04:40,761
Go get some sleep.

1257
02:04:42,161 --> 02:04:45,201
And call your son tomorrow, ok?

1258
02:08:43,481 --> 02:08:44,361
Of course.

1259
02:08:44,561 --> 02:08:45,561
Where is this place?

1260
02:08:47,161 --> 02:08:48,161
I know it.

1261
02:08:50,241 --> 02:08:51,081
Ok.

1262
02:08:51,281 --> 02:08:52,121
I'll tell her.

1263
02:08:52,241 --> 02:08:53,081
Right away.

1264
02:08:54,681 --> 02:08:55,641
Have a nice day.

1265
02:09:03,641 --> 02:09:04,601
Madam?

1266
02:09:05,041 --> 02:09:05,881
Ok?

1267
02:09:08,081 --> 02:09:09,961
I just spoke to your son.

1268
02:09:11,241 --> 02:09:12,281
Stéphane.

1269
02:09:13,001 --> 02:09:14,281
He's very pleased.

1270
02:09:14,481 --> 02:09:16,041
He's found you a home.

1271
02:09:17,401 --> 02:09:18,401
Great!

1272
02:09:20,041 --> 02:09:21,201
Not far.

1273
02:09:23,481 --> 02:09:24,721
At the Porte de Pantin.

1274
02:09:25,801 --> 02:09:28,601
That's good! It's a good place.

1275
02:09:32,481 --> 02:09:34,281
We'll get you ready to go.

1276
02:09:35,921 --> 02:09:37,361
Fill your washbag.

1277
02:09:38,281 --> 02:09:39,761
Choose your clothes.

1278
02:09:42,601 --> 02:09:44,121
He's so glad.

1279
02:09:46,281 --> 02:09:47,401
You…

1280
02:09:48,441 --> 02:09:50,441
You are…

1281
02:09:51,001 --> 02:09:51,881
who?

1282
02:09:53,361 --> 02:09:55,921
I've been coming for a few days

1283
02:09:56,201 --> 02:09:59,081
to help you, give you food, your pills.

1284
02:09:59,681 --> 02:10:00,921
We talk.

1285
02:10:02,081 --> 02:10:03,041
Together.

1286
02:10:03,321 --> 02:10:05,721
You talk of your childhood, your grandma.

1287
02:10:08,601 --> 02:10:11,681
We know each other, I talk about my life.

1288
02:10:13,641 --> 02:10:14,761
And now…

1289
02:10:16,281 --> 02:10:17,721
Your son is so glad

1290
02:10:17,801 --> 02:10:19,201
because I'm not always here.

1291
02:10:19,601 --> 02:10:21,041
It's best for you.

1292
02:10:21,721 --> 02:10:24,601
You'll be safe, with people who listen,

1293
02:10:25,121 --> 02:10:26,161
who talk,

1294
02:10:28,041 --> 02:10:29,921
who care for you every day.

1295
02:10:30,241 --> 02:10:31,081
It'll be great.

1296
02:11:24,841 --> 02:11:26,961
Our Father, Who art in Heaven…

1297
02:12:49,881 --> 02:12:51,881
Lead us not into temptation,

1298
02:12:52,121 --> 02:12:53,721
but deliver us from evil.

1299
02:13:53,241 --> 02:13:54,601
Our Father, Who art in Heaven,

1300
02:13:55,801 --> 02:13:57,361
hallowed be Thy name.

1301
02:13:58,201 --> 02:13:59,681
Thy kingdom come,

1302
02:14:00,401 --> 02:14:02,041
Thy will be done

1303
02:14:02,161 --> 02:14:03,521
on earth as it is in heaven.

1304
02:14:05,841 --> 02:14:07,761
Give us this day our daily bread

1305
02:14:09,481 --> 02:14:10,641
and forgive us our trespasses,

1306
02:14:10,761 --> 02:14:12,441
as we forgive those who trespass against us.

1307
02:14:15,001 --> 02:14:16,961
Lead us not into temptation,

1308
02:14:17,881 --> 02:14:19,401
but deliver us from evil.

1309
02:14:20,081 --> 02:14:21,241
Amen.

1310
02:15:33,201 --> 02:15:35,401
The papers will be ready this afternoon.

1311
02:15:35,641 --> 02:15:37,561
Do you have all the elements?

1312
02:15:39,761 --> 02:15:40,761
I'll take them.

1313
02:15:40,881 --> 02:15:41,721
Thank you.

1314
02:15:48,921 --> 02:15:49,761
Thank you.

1315
02:15:51,481 --> 02:15:54,521
For women, we often do white flowers.

1316
02:16:00,961 --> 02:16:01,881
You have a choice of urns,

1317
02:16:02,001 --> 02:16:03,921
take your time looking through.

1318
02:16:05,001 --> 02:16:07,641
We are here for you, of course.

1319
02:16:11,961 --> 02:16:12,841
Mum,

1320
02:16:14,321 --> 02:16:15,881
my beloved mum.

1321
02:16:17,041 --> 02:16:18,881
The last months with you and Dad

1322
02:16:19,041 --> 02:16:20,481
were intense.

1323
02:16:21,681 --> 02:16:23,881
And it was weird for me,

1324
02:16:24,921 --> 02:16:27,321
who was always
your prime anxiety,

1325
02:16:27,441 --> 02:16:30,201
to play parent

1326
02:16:32,121 --> 02:16:34,481
and dare to make decisions for you.

1327
02:16:36,161 --> 02:16:37,281
Sometimes…

1328
02:16:39,761 --> 02:16:42,001
against your freedom of action.

1329
02:16:45,681 --> 02:16:47,201
All dreams are short,

1330
02:16:48,281 --> 02:16:50,401
dreams within dreams even more so.

1331
02:16:52,481 --> 02:16:54,961
I hope your sleep is finally peaceful.

1332
02:16:56,161 --> 02:16:58,481
We will do as you wished, Mum,

1333
02:16:58,921 --> 02:17:00,921
so no-one disturbs your journey.

1334
02:17:03,041 --> 02:17:05,161
On behalf of Kiki, myself,

1335
02:17:05,601 --> 02:17:08,041
your friends and relatives,

1336
02:17:08,601 --> 02:17:10,441
we say thank you, Mum.

1337
02:17:16,321 --> 02:17:18,001
Thank you for sharing, sir.

1338
02:17:21,961 --> 02:17:23,201
Ladies and gentlemen,

1339
02:17:23,441 --> 02:17:26,001
we will now watch a slide show

1340
02:17:26,201 --> 02:17:29,121
to recall happy times spent with the deceased.

1341
02:19:04,641 --> 02:19:07,441
Grandma and grandpa have a new home?

1342
02:19:08,521 --> 02:19:09,361
No.

1343
02:19:11,281 --> 02:19:12,281
That's not a home.

1344
02:19:15,521 --> 02:19:17,201
Homes are for the living.

1345
02:21:54,161 --> 02:21:56,801
THE END